like a hot mess

You see that title? That, THAT I tell you is how I slept last night. Brenton was in a horrible mood. Didn't eat his dinner. Kept crying for his pacifier. Woke up at mid night giving Bart and I a heart attack with how intense he was screaming. Didn't go back to sleep for an hour because he wanted his pacifier, then he wanted gold fish, and then fruit snacks. Sorry son-- eat your dinner and you won't wake up starving. Ugh. On top of all this my contractions started up again. This little detail kept me up in pain and kept me up tossing and turning. All the tossing and turning made me need to constantly pee. All the movement last night also made me really nauseated. =[

This morning Brenton's mood was MUCH improved until I had to put a sweater on him. As soon as he realized it wasn't his jacket he started to throw him self around crying for his jacket. No thanks to Bart for leaving all THREE of his jackets in the washer last night! After I got his beanie and gloves on him he was fine again. He gave me 20 kisses and hugs before he left and even told Ryland to come out and that he loves him. Cutest thing in the freaking world!

I really wish Ryland would come today. The only problem with that is none of my family would be able to be here. My sister is no longer able to make it at all. She's saving up to come out after she gets her tax return. I was really sad, but she's in a sticky situation and I want her to be able to focus on her and getting to where she needs to be. My cousin Sara probably wouldn't make it for the actual birth due to the drive, but I know she'd do what she could to be here shortly after or so. I tried convincing my mom to change her ticket from TN to TX just to come straight here, but that was a no go as well. She's been away from my dad for awhile and needed to go home to see him. I know they missed each other.
The one thing that really scares the crap out of me is that George's birthday is tomorrow. I REALLY do not want to have Ryland tomorrow. As fun as it would be to ruin his birthday with a hey Zoey's a big sister again.. I just don't want my son sharing birthdays with the guy. Who knows. After having my membranes stripped tomorrow it still might be induction for me on the 26th anyways. Le Sigh.

I'm starting to over think right now so I'm jumping in the tub with a book for a nice relaxing soak. Happy Wednesday all!

 Brenton last night pretty much had a Capri Sun for dinner.